This past Sunday and Monday were so hard for me. I felt depressed, homesick, and sad. I just wanted to feel bad. I hate that feeling but sometimes it just is what it is. I kept a lump in my throat and tears were ready to come at any moment.
I think it’s just part of the transition. Some days are lonelier than others. The weather too is more dreary now and the days are shorter. It gets dark early around 4 in the afternoon so that takes getting used to.
Kent has been adjusting to a secular environment. It takes a while to get used to that when you come from an edifying seminary that starts and ends every class with prayer. There is very much a focus on knowledge and academics- lots of “mental jousting” which he enjoys if there is a foundational belief that it all comes from God.
1 Corinthians 8:1-3. ” Knowledge puffs up, but love builds up. The man who thinks he knows something does not yet know. But the man who loves God is known by God.”
He also is meeting people that want to study theology but don’t believe. We can’t complain because he wants to engage the culture and this is the first step.
Sunday night my friend Cindy called and I guess she was the lucky winner. She got to hear the cries and frustration of an emotional middle aged woman. She listened and prayed for me and that began my turn around. I got off the phone with a peace I hadn’t had earlier.
Yesterday God began to move and I just want to give Him the glory. Even though these are all little things it has made my down heart soar. In the last 24 hours:
1. I was able to fix my iphone and now can use it over here.
2. I had a doctor call me and help me figure out how to get Andrew his medicine for ADHD which is no small feat in a socialist health care system.
3. We got a call from the shipping company that we sent most of our clothes, shoes, coats, etc. in August and they are finally bringing it next Tuesday.
4. Andrew’s school gave him a temporary bus pass and hopefully will be increasing the number of hours he goes to school per day from 2 to all day soon.
5. Our pastor and his wife came over for dinner and we had a lovely time. They are an authentic couple who enjoy being around the people they minister to.
(These situations all have back stories to them which is too much detail to give but they were all little things that were adding to my frustration.)
So, if you think of us please pray for us. We really need it now. We know we’re supposed to be here but it’s been difficult.